Throat Blog — Taking a Deep Breath

So, a couple of weeks ago I had a CT scan that showed my throat was clear but there was a nodule in my lung. Fast forward to this week. Had a PET scan on Monday. The radiologist would only say that my throat was clear but that there were multiple nodules in both lungs. But, no count of how many, no indication of how big. So, all I could do was go home with that meager information and wait for today’s follow up appointment with my medical oncologist. Oh, and Google, of course.

Well, all Googling did was raise not my spirits but rather my blood pressure. Everything I managed to hit on looked dire. I finally swore off of Googling (mostly). Was doing me no good. And, in fact, at my appointment, today, I found out that the news is not dire. Metastasis, but very early and nodules are very small…the largest are smaller than a pea. We discussed treatment options including looking at available trials. For the one trial that I might have matched up to I needed bigger tumors. I am completely OK that I don’t qualify.

Instead, next week (insurance permitting), I’ll start on a three-drug combo. One of the drugs will require me to have a port (medical, not USB–but wouldn’t that be cool) put into my chest so that it can be delivered over a 4-day period every 3 weeks The other drugs will go in in a weekly infusion.

Possible side effects are fatigue and rash. I can already say that I can think of at least one activity that tires me out and puts me at risk of getting a rash that I’d rather be doing…but I don’t get to pick, so will just have to go with chemotherapy.

No restriction on what I can do, other than whatever fatigue might limit me to.

So, one day next week I’ll go in and have the port put in (a 4-hour process under mild sedation), and will hopefully start treatment on Friday.

Knowing that this is not dire (serious, certainly, but no reason to start planning my going away party) has me breathing much easier.

Throat Blog — Clearing my Throat

Got my quarterly CT scan and follow up with the radiation oncologist, this week. Going in, I had a list of things to discuss. Here is the list with the results:

  • When I look down, the back of my thighs go numb
    • Pretty normal. Happens in about 30% of people who get radiation like I did. It will go away.
  • Status of Lymphedema
    • Lymphedema is gone. I have some mass of something in the front of my neck. He said it appears to be the remains of the tumor and disorganized cartilage.
  • Voice Restoration
    • No way. That “disorganized cartilage” I mentioned above is basically the front of my larynx, where the vocal chords normally anchor. There is nothing to anchor to…so I’m stuck with “throat talking.” No more singing in the shower. But, my facility in throat talking should improve somewhat, over time (a result of practice, not healing).
  • Coughing up bone
    • I had coughed up a sliver of something that appeared to be bone, twice. The second time I was able to save the chip. He looked at it and took some pics with his phone. Hmmm. Thinks it is probably just some calcified cartilage that was floating around. Nothing to worry about. My photo is attached. Actual size about 1/3″ long.
  • CT Results
    • The scan was just a soft-tissue scan of my neck (included from eyeballs to a little ways into the top of my lungs). My throat, although functionally scrambled, looks completely disease free. Yay! But, he was able to see something at the top of my lungs that he wants to follow up on with a PET scan. Not enough detail in the CT (nor was it intended to be a lung scan), so no diagnosis. Just some concern that there could be something going on. PET scheduled for ASAP…which ends up being 2 weeks from now, with a follow up with my medical oncologist a couple of days later. Hoped for a much sooner scan…hanging in limbo sucks.

So, a mix of news. Hate that my voice is gone, gone, gone. Glad that my throat is cancer-free. Concerned that there could be something going on in my lungs. Glad that if there is something going on, we’ve caught it early (my 1/31 PET scan showed my lungs as completely clear).

Here is a sidebar on how the brain works. We know that memory is imperfect. It is not a DVR, recording everything in perfect detail. Instead, we remember what we think we experienced, sometimes what we hoped we experienced, and sometimes things we never experienced. So, where am I going with this? When I recall a conversation I had yesterday, in my memory I “hear” my normal, pre-disease voice. Not the hoarse whisper that I really speak in. Pretty strange.

That’s all the news that fits, for now. Will hopefully be a quiet couple of weeks up to the PET scan.