Throat Blog — The Beginning

Well, this is going to cover almost 2 months then I will (as I am able) update closer to real time.

July 19, 2017

I woke up at about 3AM with sudden pain on the right side of my larynx. I would call it a sore throat, but not sore on the inside like you get with strep. More like if someone had hit me in the throat a couple of weeks ago and it still ached (not that I’ve experienced that personally). Not horribly painful, but odd, so I consulted Dr. Google who told me that all kinds of sore throats are typically caused by a virus and resolve on their own within 2 weeks. Ok, so I’ll wait a bit and see what happens.

July 26, 2017

I almost never watch TV. But, for some reason, tonight I had it on (I don’t even remember what I was watching). A commercial came on for a medication I’ve been taking. “Call your doctor right away if you experience … throat pain …”

July 27, 2017

Ok, a quick digression. I know that this makes me some sort of elitist, but my personal physician is part of MDVIP, a concierge medical practice. I probably would never have even considered such a thing (it costs extra out of my pocket that isn’t insured) but I’ve had the same personal physician for over 35 years, and he is very good(1). So I followed him when he joined. One of the benefits of the practice is virtually immediate access to the doctor when I need something. So… Was sitting in front of the Dr’s office at 8AM when they opened. At 8:15 AM I was in an exam room talking to him and describing the symptoms. He assured me that the side affect that they were worried about has actually only ever occurred in rats so was unlikely (despite what my sister says) to be what was causing this. We agreed to give it another week and see if it resolved on its own.

August 4, 2017

Ok, it didn’t resolve, and now I’m getting hoarse. So, revisited my Dr’s office (8 AM) and got a shot of Azithromycin and a prescription for a Z-Pack. Looking more like some kind of bacterial infection. Over the course of the next week, hoarseness increased.

August 9, 2017

Since this is continuing to get worse (more hoarse), my Dr. ordered a CT scan of my sinuses plus a ultrasound of my throat and referred me to an Otolaryngologist for follow-up.

August 11, 2017

My voice is almost completely gone when I have my first appointment with the Oto(2). He ordered a course of methylprednisolone and rescheduled for 6 weeks.

September 5, 2017

Just before the Labor Day holiday, I noticed some swelling low on my neck (below my Adams Apple). By the end of the holiday, the swelling was pronounced on both sides. So, I walked in w/o appointment to the Oto and he saw me quickly. He agreed that this was unusual and scheduled an immediate CT. I have absolutely no voice (beyond a whisper), now. I’ll digress a bit on how annoying it is to not be able to speak. I cannot:
  • Use a drive through.
  • Communicate well if there is any background noise.
  • Talk on the telephone.
  • Make myself heard in meetings without slapping the table.
I never noticed how often we talk over each other. Not in a bad way, it is just that if we have a lively conversation, we can all hear each other even though sometimes we are all talking at the same time. So, no lively conversations for me. Everyone has to stop what they are doing to try to hear me. So, I’m more and more just letting the conversation flow around me. I also find that a fair number of people unnecessarily whisper back to me.

September 7, 2017

Had the CT scan (with and w/o contrast) yesterday and back in the Oto’s office today. He’s immediately referring me over to UT Southwestern. He explained that I have a 2.5 x 1.5 x 1.5 mass of some sort in my larynx. He also said that in his experience this would more than likely be benign (but serious). Sent me to pick up the DVD of the CT scan so I could get it to the UT Southwesern medical staff. The CT report listed as possibilities:
  • Unusual infection (radiologist thinks unlikely since surrounding tissue is not inflamed, but he did not know I’d been on Z-pack and steroids, which would have reduced inflammation, so I think it might be a bit more likely…and is really what I hope it is; have you ever wished you had an infection?).
  • Benign Tumor. This is what the radiologist felt was most likely and agrees with what my Oto said.
  • Malignant Tumor. Radiologist felt that it was extremely low probability.

September 8, 2017

After trying unsuccessfully to arrange for an appointment over the internet and phone, I give up and drive over to the hospital. I really want an appointment TODAY! Whatever this is, I really, really want it to be fixed ASAP. But, the Dr I was referred to was totally booked up for weeks. We found one of her associates (Head and Neck Oncology, Surgeon, (3) ) who could see me on September 13. That was the best they could do. So, I took it. I also made a copy of all the files from the CT scan for myself and found some cool software that would 3D model the scans. Probably shouldn’t have done that. Found for myself that much of my thyroid cartilage has been affected by whatever this is. At a minimum, this is going to mean surgery to reconstruct, and a down time of weeks (ok, this is my prognosis, not one made by a medical professional, so am probably working myself up more than I should). It could also mean either partial or complete removal of my larynx, which would put me out for 2-4 Months. With the above in mind, I started contingency planning at work. I have a couple of categories that could be picked up by one of the other Product guys, but one is so specialized, it is going to be difficult to cover. So, I provided my management team with my suggestions of who to go to for help if I am out for that long.

September 11, 2017

I have been madly thirsty all weekend and feel a little shaky, so I visited my primary doctor again this morning. I also wanted to be sure that he had a copy of my CT scan and let him know that, even though the Oto was my referring physician, I was going to tell UT Southwestern that they should really consult back with my primary. I saw the Oto (who seemed very good and professional) only 2 times. I’ve seen my primary uncounted times for over 35 years. Plus, he has additional resources available through MDVIP that might be useful (like access to Cleveland Heart Clinic, MD Anderson, Mayo Clinic, Baylor College of Medicine, etc). Of course, I had consulted Dr. Google again over the weekend. Since my throat was involved, I concentrated on causes that could be related and found Hyperthyroidism is one possibility. I also told my doctor that I was completely open to it just being anxiety, as well. So, my doctor ordered some blood work including thyroid function so that I would have that on hand for my UT Southwestern visit on Wednesday.

September 12, 2017

Labs came back and only slightly elevated TSH. T3 and T4 were fine. So, the thirstiness is most likely due to anxiety (could also be low blood sugar…Ok, I’ve got to stop Googling this stuff).

Appointment is tomorrow. Really wish it was yesterday. Other than not having really cleaned my house, I’ve prepped for a stay at the hospital. Cat is good for at least a week (automatic feeder, automatic litter bot, 1 liter of water plus left the lid up :), and he’s used to the mess). I have a hospital bag (sweat pants, loose shirts, slippers, personal care items) packed and in the car. Got a silent travel guitar in there, too (practicing some would certainly be better than Googling, assuming I have that kind of time to kill). I don’t really expect to update before my appointment tomorrow afternoon.

  1. Dr. Bernard McGowen
  2. Dr. Christopher Lee
  3. Dr. Baran Sumer

Throat Blog — A Word that Ends in “Oma”

September 13, 2017

Long wait in the doctor’s waiting room. My fault. “You never get in early to see the doctor if you show up on time.” So, I showed up at 12:30 for a 2:30 appointment. Of course, I saw the doctor at 2:30.

He scoped my throat again and went over the CT with me. I was really hoping he would give me his best Arnold Swartzenneger impression, but instead “It is a tumor.” But, without more testing, does not know what kind nor what treatment. So, scoping was followed by a needle biopsy. Hopefully final results tomorrow. But, preliminarily he feels it is narrowed down to some word that ends in “oma”. Could be carcinoma, sarcoma, or some other oma. Oma gosh.

Treatment will likely be one or move of chemo and surgery. Surgery can be partial or total laryngectomy (goal is to keep enough to preserve speech and normal breathing through mouth and nose). But, can’t tell. He wants a PET scan ASAP.

Well, ASAP turns out to be September 22. 9 days. Well, maybe.

After I left and was on the freeway, my phone rang. Have I mentioned how hard it is to talk on the phone? Well, freeway background noise makes it impossible, so I pushed the call to voice mail. No message left, but the same number a minute later. So, I looked around but there was absolutely no place to pull over (I35 at the I30 west bound interchange). Call went to voice mail before I could pull over. No message left.

So, I drove up to the first exit and into a parking lot. Checked email and saw I had a new message from the doctor’s office. They can’t just send you an email. You have to log into their portal. So I did that. The nurse said that she had an earlier PET appointment for me but didn’t say when it was, just to call her back. So I did that. And got her voice mail. No reply back by the end of their business day. I left a message and also sent a message through their portal to please leave voice mail next time.

So, that is the news. Hurry up and wait.

Throat Blog — Surgery on the Horizon

September 14, 2017 (Morning)

Ok, got the new PET scan appointment. Now on Monday afternoon. They didn’t say whether or not to bring the cat (I suspect not).

Nurse also tried to call this morning. Again, no voice mail left. But, got a secure email. Dr. Sumer is looking to take me into surgery as soon as next week. I still don’t know what the scope of that surgery will be, but glad, at least, that we are closer to having a time line.

My job for nearly 20 years, now, has involved product development, and development is always built around a timeline. We don’t always hit every date, but we at least have a plan of what we are going to do step by step and how long each step should take.

When I go camping, I tend to use some of the same methodologies:

  • Determine what I want to do (i.e. backpack for 2 days in the rough).
  • Determine what I need to accomplish in order to do that (prepare/buy food for 2 days; take appropriate clothing; take appropriate shelter/sleeping gear; take appropriate personal and first aid items; take enough water or materials to purify water; etc.)
  • Make a list of everything I need based on the above.
  • Determine what I need to do to collect, make, or buy everything on the list (cook/package food or go to REI; pack clothes, etc).
  • Then, start doing it.
  • Finally, go backpacking for 2 days knowing that I’ve got what I need to have a good time.

Ok, I think the final step in this is not going to be “Have a good time.” Well, more than think that. But I really want to know what the road map is. What is the next step? When will it happen? How long will it take? What will we do after that?

I know that this makes me sound like a control freak. I’m really not. I’m more laid back than that. But, not knowing that road map is making me a little crazy.

Throat Blog — Visualizations

Ok, played with the CT scan data files at lunch and made a picture of my larynx cartilage in 3D. The image is rough-ish, as I don’t really know how to use the software all that well.

First, here is an illustration of the normal larynx.

Here is what I extracted from the CT scan data, just the front portion of the larynx and only the cartilage/bone shows. Soft tissue, skin, etc does not appear on this view.

From that you can see that the Hyoid bone is fine and the Cricoid cartilage is also fine (it looks rough because of my poor CT navigation skills). But, much of the Thyroid cartilage is missing. So, at the very least, the remaining Thyroid Cartilage needs to be removed and that area repaired. Whether more needs to be done depends on how nasty the tumor itself is and whether it has spread into any of the other cartilage.

Throat Blog — My Schedule

I haven’t gotten a call, yet, but went and looked at the patient portal. Since no call, this might be tentative.


PET Scan Inj Room: 3:30 pm. This is where they will inject me with the radioactive isotope.

Pet Scan: 4:30 pm. This is the scan itself.


Surgery (no time given).

Procedures: Laryngectomy, Tracheostomy, Radical Neck Dissection

Not much more to say (unless they call with a different time or date). Watch the blog for updates…I’ll give someone my admin info so that they can keep you updated.

Throat Blog — Where Will I Be?

The surgery is definitely set for Tuesday…I got confirmation, but am expecting more details today. For the surgery itself I will be at:

Zale Lipshy University Hospital Operating Room
5151 Harry Hines Blvd
Dallas TX 75390
Oh, and a text message exchange with my boss to share:
Him: I’m in my office. Can we talk?
Me: You are a cruel boss. You can talk…

Throat Blog — How Much Will It Cost?

Well, finally got a call from the hospital…but just about the upcoming costs (assuming my insurance pays and I have no idea why they would not pay). Pretty much the price of a small home freeze dryer. I’d used up a lot of my out-of-pocket expense cap leading up to this (2 CT scans, ultra sound, doctor’s visits, plus my annual physical and blood work back in January).

Still awaiting a road map, which is top of my mind and which is what most people ask me. How long will I be in the hospital? How long will I be in Rehab? How long before I can eat? How long before I can go home? How long before I can drive?

I know that many of those answers are the standard answer given by any good economist…”It depends.” (Most people don’t know that most of my elective  business degree courses were economics…Money and Banking, primarily…they think I’m some kind of engineer or lawyer or bohemian geek.) Some general ballpark idea would be nice, though.

Well, back to waiting for the next call.

Throat Blog — Where There Is a Will

So, no updates yesterday (Saturday) other than a couple of FaceBook posts.  Had a downer Friday afternoon and wasn’t too motivated for the kind of thought this post takes. The downer was writing out a will (which I hope isn’t needed for 50 years, but can’t leave things just floating if it is sooner). Not going to say who gets what, here. Not the time or place. Again: time 50 years from now and place Mars is what I’m shooting for.

But, even 50 years from now there are a few things about “final arrangements”  that I don’t see changing so might as well get it out there, now.  Can really sum it up in two words: Cremation and Celebration.

First word pretty much speaks for itself, I think. No need to have a place in dirt to come see me. If you remember me, you’ll remember me without all that.

Second word I’ll take a bit more time with. I do not need or want a religious service. Not because I don’t have beliefs (I do) but because I know we don’t all share the same beliefs. I believe there is more than one answer, and that answer is personal for each of us. So, if you need to seek solace with God, Jesus, Jehovah, Allah, Buddha, Shiva, or Vishnu please do that. But first (or after) come and celebrate with my friends and family.

I don’t know where that will be 50 years from now. There are no restaurants on Mars, yet. But if it is significantly sooner, that celebration will be at a restaurant I go to a lot, where I have made many good friends, and sat listening to music (or reading my Kindle book at the bar) many, many times. La Gondola in Mansfield. Take the day off. Come down for some good food. Music by David Paul and Doug Bullard (jointly or as individual soloists). No downer music…ok, maybe just one. Eat, drink, enjoy, and remember.

So, that’s out of the way. Last night I went to my two favorite downtown Fort Worth venues. Reata (no pictures, but had chicken fried quail with cheddar jalapeno grits and elk sausage). Finished most of it. Then on to Scat Jazz Lounge for some good jazz. Nice night. Probably my last time to have a chance to do that until next year, when I’m up and able to drive myself around.

Today I’m going to have coffee with a friend and lunch with a couple of others. No more of this maudlin crap. 

Note: I accidentally posted this under my sister’s account. I’ve made her an admin here so that she can update posts during/after surgery. Was showing her how to login to the system and left her logged in, I guess. It was really me (Paul), though, on this one.

Throat Blog — Last Day at Work for a While

Well, finishing up my last day at work before hospital fun starts. Still haven’t heard specific times for the surgery, so I plan on leaving early before my PET appointment so that I can stop by the surgeon’s office (assuming I haven’t made contact before then).

I seem to finally be at a loss for words. So, now you know what it takes. 🙂

Throat Blog — Got some Time?

Well, I got the time, anyway. Go into prep around 10:30 AM. Surgery starts at 12:34 PM. Ok, so that sounds really overly precise at first glance. It is like saying 47.834% of all statistics are made up.

But, upon a little reflection, that should mean that they actually have a minute-by-minute plan of action (even if I don’t have that plan to see for myself). I can imagine it, though.

  • 10:30:00 AM: Remove Patient’s Shirt
  • 10:30:15 AM: Remove Patient’s Shoes and Socks
  • 10:30:30 AM: Remove Patient’s Pants
  • 10:31:00 AM: Remove Patient’s Underwear
  • 10:34:00 AM: Fully recover from previous step
  • 10:35:00 AM: Lay Patient on Gurney
  • 10:35:30 AM: Start IV Line
  • and so it goes…